Unexpected enemies!

I think -

This time when there is dialogue,

I'm gonna make it clear to life's meandering ways that it cant spill over its boundaries and make a mess of the vegetation that grows so peacefully.

I think -

Now is the time to clarify my stance,

That I choose not to remain a mute spectator like the sand on the beach loosened by the continuous onslaught.

I think -

Its either this way or that now,

I'm either the sea or the land

I'm suspended in air or sunk in the mine

I'm heads or tails

I'm scalp or toe

I'm jumping in the realms of joy or trodding on the razor's edge weeping in pain.

And in my thought,

I'm enveloped by that one thread of life that swirls like a whilpool with velocity that beats the head heart and everything in between and that one link disrupts my thinking -

Hope plays spoilsport!

When hope knocks, prudence flies out of the open window.

Taking Stock - II!

Fear.
Thats been a key constituent of my life. And despite it being that way, I've never felt it touch me as much as it has in the last 2 months.
Its not the fact that I've always been in control of my life thats responsible for this state of mind. Neither is it the perfect coherrence of whats happening in my professional life.
No. Its a conflict.
Its a dependency issue. Its a nasty dependency issue.
And its something that I'm unable to do anything about.
Its a situation that could make your life irreparably messy and/or unacceptably miserable. Its a feeling of complete surrender to an external force which in your heart of hearts may not evoke the kind of trust that you expect something like that to. Its a bad feeling.

The stars that blink
The moon that glitters
The thick black sky that protects you in silence
Suddenly turn mystically against you.

"No", they say, "we think this is wrong".
"We adore you, love you, protect you and we need nothing from you
except your happiness".
Now heavens, I urge you to answer,
What fault of mine is it if you determined my life's unbending curves on the night of my birth?

Where perceptions determine errors,
Where time decides destiny,
Where wrong is just the other side of right,
My soul's heavy, my head spins and my heart bleeds!!!

Thought Geometry!

Between two
points
of view
lies a
line
of thought.

When there is no line
there is a
curve
and thats why they say -
Dont beat
around
the bush!

PS - Every poet has a bad poem....some like me have a despicable, digusting one....such as this one!!!

"I took the road all travelled and that, that, that, my friend, has made alllllllll the difference!!!

Here's to cheap thrills - Cheers!!

Taking Stock - I!!

Its been a while since I wrote and I'm kinda disgusted at the rate at which I have denigrated as a regular blogger. I remember the frequency of updates when I started this blog and feel ashamed now. So I guess its time to get back to old days and this is the first of the series of new posts that you wil c....:)

Its 2 months to go before I sign out of the b-school and college life for good and suddenly I feel a lil unsettled. Yeah, well, its serious life in the big bad world out there n all that....but I've never feared that and history stands testimony to that. But whats getting to me is the pace of life that I'm gonna be living, you know, the work at work at home on weekends on weekdays - I mean its not gonna be lazy anymore. Now thats scary!!
All of a sudden I feel like doing nothing - the kinda feeling you get when you know the answer to a question but you're bored to answer. Suddenly, I wanna cling onto this moment that is and never let it pass and then do nothing in the everlasting err moment.

But just when I'm trying to do that, thoughts about the lack of such feedom to laze envelope me and I go back to not enjoying the moment...
I'm like confused and like "ayyooo"....but yeah I guess I always was like this so its nothing unusual...so I waste time aimlessly like this...

....and crave for the liberty to do so in future also....(sigh!)