Fear.
Thats been a key constituent of my life. And despite it being that way, I've never felt it touch me as much as it has in the last 2 months.
Its not the fact that I've always been in control of my life thats responsible for this state of mind. Neither is it the perfect coherrence of whats happening in my professional life.
No. Its a conflict.
Its a dependency issue. Its a nasty dependency issue.
And its something that I'm unable to do anything about.
Its a situation that could make your life irreparably messy and/or unacceptably miserable. Its a feeling of complete surrender to an external force which in your heart of hearts may not evoke the kind of trust that you expect something like that to. Its a bad feeling.
The stars that blink
The moon that glitters
The thick black sky that protects you in silence
Suddenly turn mystically against you.
"No", they say, "we think this is wrong".
"We adore you, love you, protect you and we need nothing from you
except your happiness".
Now heavens, I urge you to answer,
What fault of mine is it if you determined my life's unbending curves on the night of my birth?
Where perceptions determine errors,
Where time decides destiny,
Where wrong is just the other side of right,
My soul's heavy, my head spins and my heart bleeds!!!
It was about time you were hit by a despicable phase. Serves you right for all the time you spent being high and mighty.heh heh
ReplyDelete@Flunky - Thats nasty!
ReplyDeleteHey Amoolya ....There comes a time in everyones life, that they are subjected to these kind of situations....All one needs to do is not to hang themselves but to hang on......!
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